Last week I had a moment.  A moment where time stopped.  And my spirit connected with heaven in a small way that was significant only to me.  And in that moment I realized that I was needing to do more as a mother.  It wasn't guilt, necessarily, or a feeling of discouragement.  It was a realization that these spirits that have been sent to me needed, deserved and were ready for MORE.  More teaching, more love, more time.  They need their buckets filled.  They need to be nurtured and cared for in a way that only I can give them.  They need to be taught correct principles and allowed to govern themselves in those principles, at times and as age allows.  I feel like the day-to-day hustle and bustle has distracted me from the important teaching moments that they need.  I want to be more creative, more thoughtful and more deliberate in my mothering.  I want to be more in the moment with them.  I think for awhile now I have been going through the motions and trying my best, but I am wanting to up my game.  Give more.  Try harder.  Pray more.  Work harder.  All in an effort to help these three boys become the best they can be. 

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6 responses to “Motherhood”

  1. Dana Avatar
    Dana

    Love those pictures. And as always, you inspire me!!

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  2. shelley Avatar
    shelley

    That picture on the trampoline is perfection — I LOVE it!
    And, though I know you are not seeking praise or validation with this post, I have to give it. You are already a deliberate and thoughtful and creative mother. This desire is actually evidence of that. You are doing great things in your home with your boys. I can only imagine what will come as you “up your game.”

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  3. Aunt Lisa Avatar
    Aunt Lisa

    I admire you as a loving mother and parent and from the looks on your boys faces – well…you are doing something right!
    I would love a copy of the trampoline pic – so natural of all of them.
    xoxo

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  4. christi Avatar
    christi

    Mer,
    I had a similar feeling last week. The thought came to my heart that I want to lie my life in such a way that I qualify for miracles to occor in the lives of my children. that I can ( like my pioneer ancestors) call upon the powers the heaven to aid me in my work with my boys!!
    What a beautiful post!!
    Thank You
    Chris

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    christi

    Ummm Live and occur
    some spelling errors
    I am beat tired!!!

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  6. Lori T Avatar

    Huh. I had the same feelings last week as well. Little by little . . . day by day . . . truly striving to be the best, most “deliberate” and “in the moment” moms we can be, and everything will work out.

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